Disheartening Devotion by shadowthedancer, literature
Literature
Disheartening Devotion
Well today is ending
But I'm still moving on
Going to my grave
A place you're not welcome
No place for you to mourn
No place for you to say goodbye
No more me and you
And for this I give thanks
You were the worst
You were the cancer
Killing me every step of the way
Dancing through the pain
Through the death of me
Glad I'm on the other side
Laughing at your pour sight
You think I'm looking over you
You thought I loved you
But that was then
And this is now
They have buried me
Even though I was still alive
You could have stopped them
But you kept walking
Always the one left out
The outcast looking in
Putting forth an effort
That won't change the way things are
Mentally messed up
Can't focus on what's wanted most
Just because there's a smile
Doesn't mean there's happiness
The image is never the whole
Even though that's what it may seem
Do you know what it's like
To be the one on the outside
Wanting to be on the inside
But can't find your way
Always searching
But never finding the answer
Never figuring out why
Why you live the life you live
The dreams you have
Will you achieve them
Or will they shrivel and disappear
Envious of what others have
Molding into your inside's gl
This corner of darkness
The place I've grown to know
Thoughts that took place
Feelings I have never shown
Sitting on the inside
In a box that's enclosed
I've tried to get out
More complications arose
Loneliness took the place of you
Left alone for weeks
The words you've spoken
Cut so far deep
Meaningless to you
Yet you still try to convince me
This corner made me smarter
To look at what the eye can't see
Look beyond your words
And into your lies
I thought you noticed
All the tears I have cried
Shattered across the floor
Still yet to clean it up
There's no use
More from within will corrupt
This corner is my place
Where
Always the one left out
The outcast looking in
Putting forth an effort
That won't change the way things are
Mentally messed up
Can't focus on what's wanted most
Just because there's a smile
Doesn't mean there's happiness
The image is never the whole
Even though that's what it may seem
Do you know what it's like
To be the one on the outside
Wanting to be on the inside
But can't find your way
Always searching
But never finding the answer
Never figuring out why
Why you live the life you live
The dreams you have
Will you achieve them
Or will they shrivel and disappear
Envious of what others have
Molding into your inside's gl